conforming to the PATTERN OF HIS WORD

it has been quite long..

2007-09-06T06:40:00.000-07:00

grabe. ang tagal ko na pa lang di nakakapagpost dito sa blog ko. more than one month na. napakarami nang nangyari. sobra. sisimulan ko na ang pagkwekwento.

1. ACTS 13th anniversary today, September 6!!!

ayan. 13 years old na ang ACTS. hehe. praise God!!! it's all because of Him!!! ang saya ng fellowship kanina. maraming games, praise and worship, at sobrang nakakabless yung message about evangelism. praise God for kuya david sta. maria of pshs batch 2000. siya yung speaker kanina. na-inspire akong i-share ang overflowing joy na binibigay sa kin ni Lord. sabi nga kanina sa message, evangelism is about sharing our joy, life and God's truth.

2. birthday ni andrei, paeng at tada b. today!!!

haha. ang cool. nakailang kanta na kami ng happy birthday kay andrei. binati pa namin sila ni paeng nung fellowship. si tada b. naman, kinantahan namin nung lab. tech. kaya lang ang joketym nung pagkanta.

3. birthday ko nung monday, September 3!!!

weehh. 15 years old na ko. pero 4'11 1/2 " pa rin ako. haha. grabe. ginawan ako ng poster na lithium na may nakalagay na "happy birthday erin!!!" at binati nila ko nung flagcem. haha. kabirthday ko nga pala si berto. haha. salamat sa lahat ng bumati! at siyempre sa family ko. hehe. and of course kay Lord, for giving me another year to live and share His truth to the world. eto ung mga pinakaunang bumati sa kin nung birthday ko. hehe.

1. charmaine sanchez

2. dastynne dela cruz

3. dianne acoba

4. gee-an dela paz

5. norman mascarinas

6. theia joaquin

hehe. salamat sa inyong pagstay up ng late sa gabi (madaling araw pala) at sa pagbati sa kin!!! hehe. sobrang na-appreciate ko yun. i love you guys!!! sa lahat ng bumati sa kin, salamat talaga!!! love ko kayong lahat!!!

4. nasabi ko na bang saved na si papa? well, kung di pa saved na siya!!! Thanks Lord!!!

5. may crush ako.

ang cute ng crush ko. siguro kaya siya ginawa ni Lord na crush ko para sumaya naman ako. hehe. ang saya ko tuloy nung may aptitude test. haha.

hehe. marami pa ko gusto ikwento pero wag muna ngayon. gagawa pa ko str, physics, chem, math at english. haha. rami pala. anyways. hehe. gawa na ko.

"immeasurable!

the God of wonders

Your love has filled me

i can't contain it

its more than enough for me

more than enough for me

immeasurable!"

- "Immeasurable (More Than Enough for Me)"

by: erin bello, dastynne dela cruz, gee-ann dela paz and pauline dela pena

"sana, bati na tayo. pansinin mo naman ako. haha."

why does it have to be like this?

2007-07-13T23:14:00.000-07:00

ano ba naman tong nangyayari sa akin? di ko na maunderstand ang sarili ko. super lungkot ko talaga these past weeks. naiisip ko tuloy minsan, "Lord, bakit kailangang maramdaman ko pa to? puwede namang hindi di ba? bakit kailangang ako pa?"

pero sinagot ako ni Lord. sa pamamagitan ng kaibigan kong si julius (salamat julius :D). sabi ni julius sa kin, "marami pa naman mas magagandang bagay na in store for you eh..hindi man ngayon..sa future siguro mangyayari..kung di mo kaya ipilit..na makalimot..devote yorself to the Lord.."

grabe. si Lord talaga ginagamit niya ang mga friends ko para marealize ko yung mga gusto Niyang ituro sa kin. thanks, Lord.

salamat rin kay julius. salamat kasi lahat ng mga sinasabi ko sa'yo dati ay ipinapaalala mo sa akin ngayon. salamat kasi nagagamit mo yung mga pinagsasabit ko sa'yo. salamat sa pakikinig sa kin.

hehe. yun lang.

Inspired

2007-07-07T00:24:00.000-07:00

"I was a sinner who lives on my own
I was a sheep who was lost
Then came You
You showed me love
You cared for me
You gave me life and changed me."

hehe. yan ang first verse ng kantang sinusulat ko. sana mabuo ko na ito. para kay Lord to.

tagal ko na ring di nakapagpost. busy kasi eh. marami nang nangyari. sa lahat ng mga nangyaring 'yon, kasama ko si Lord. Sa lahat ng paghihirap, kasama ko Siya. Hindi Niya ko pinabayaan. And now, He has set me free. God reigns victorious!

obeying God will cost us something. but this i know- it's worth it!!!

Lord, help.

2007-05-19T00:09:00.000-07:00

this is not right. no, it isn't. i am acting so weirdly these past few weeks. i don't know why. maybe because of last school year's events concerning.. some stuff best kept secret. uhm. i really can't do this. i can't handle this anymore. i am so fed up with my unthinkable thoughts (?!?). i read two blogs today, one i enjoyed, the other one i hated (not the entire blog but one blog entry, the blogger's 1st serious entry i believe). uhm. it was already in the past, but for me it's not. i just can't take the idea of that thing happening again. i just can't. Lord, help.

maybe you can't understand what i am saying, but that's fine. some may know what i am talking about, and to those of you who can, keep quiet (if you want to talk about it, talk about it in front of me. no backstabbing). i can't move on. ok. of course i can, i'm just thinking that i can't. i was so depressed a few days back. i prayed last last night that God would take away the depression. and He did!! praise God for that. but the problem does not end there. i am still struggling to get over this. i keep on thinking about what will happen in the future and when my dream (yes, my dream or should i say nightmare) appears in my mind, i want to do something real bad.

i don't want to be a plastic "friend". i want to forget this. i want to be free from this. i am afraid that i might sin again. i don't want to feel this bondage of my yesterday anymore. God knows what i am feeling. so He did something to help me. last may 9, i was having my quiet time. i was supposed to read 2 Peter 3:3-15, but instead, i read 1 John 3:3-15. and some of the verses i read struck me.

"Everyone who has this hope in him purifies himself, just as he is pure. No one who lives in him keeps on sinning..."

- 1 John3:3, 6

wow. that was accidental and yet God used it to make me realize that when i told Him that i want to be pure again, i am pure again. i don't have to worry anymore because He has already freed me from the bondage of my past sins. i just have to remember this truth all the time so i won't feel bad anymore. God really comforts us even in our daily struggles in life. i know i will still struggle with this. but i know that when i say, "Lord, help" He'll be there. =D

"Born for freedom,

for Your light has set me free..."

- from the song YOUR LOVE,

LCDC2k7's theme song

2007-05-13T03:58:00.000-07:00

hei. kmusta naman. gusto ko lang i-share etong kanta ni fergie. nagagandahan kasi ako sa lyrics. haha.=)

I hope you know, I hope you know

That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, Myself and I

We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But Ive got to get a move on with my life

Its time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry

-big girls don't cry

by fergie

hehe. ang ganda talaga.=)

si Lord talaga.. =D

2007-05-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

hehehe. nainspire akong magblog tonight kasi nagbasa ako ng blog ng mga tao tao (actually yung kay ate ida at kuya pito lang, hehe). kaya eto ako ngayon. nagbblog. wahaha. XD

nakakainspire yung mga blogs ni ate ida at kuya pito. na-remind ako ng maraming bagay. parang yung WWJD. What Would Jesus Do? ano nga ba? minsan habang nakaupo ako sa mrt eh pumapasok sa isip ko yun. minsan naiisip kong paupuin yung person sa harap ko. kaya lang naiisip ko din, "kababae kong tao ba't ako yung magpapaupo. ang raming lalaki diyan eh." hindi pala tama yun. matapos kong di magpaupo, nagguilty ako. naiisip ko, pano kung si Jesus ay nandun, ano kaya ang gagawin Niya? kaya promise ko sa susunod, kahit tumayo na lang ako, basta kahit may mapaupo akong one person. after all, one good deed will glorify our Lord!!! =D

kamon naman. grabe. nakakatuwa. kilala nio ba kung sino ang nakita ko sa mrt cubao kanina?? siyempre hindi!!! kasi di ko pa sinasabi sa inyo eh. wahaha. XD sino? [drum roll..] si kuya rein!!! yes! si kuya rein! nakita nia rin ako at tinanong nia kung saan ako pupunta. sabi ko, "pauwi na po." hehehe. katuwa talaga. dat made my day..=)

hay nako. speaking of mrt. akala ko kanina ay ma-stranded na ko sa mrt. hay. ang raming tao. di nga mgkasya yung mga tao sa train. siksikan talaga. akala ko pa nga eh magstop ang operation nila. buti na lang hindi. Thank God. ang bait talaga Niya.

hayan. magkakaron ng getog ang LCDC2k7! yes! sana makasama ako kc miss ko na sila. hehe. sana pumayag si mama. sasabayan naman dw ako ni kuya gens-qc. tnx kuya! =D

sige. yun lang muna. si Lord talaga.. ang bait!!! =)

ang aking testimony

2007-05-06T02:12:00.000-07:00

Nitong 2nd year, nagbackslide ako. Although present ako sa ACTS Fellowship sa school, yung heart ko ay hindi para kay Lord. Wala akong quiet time the whole school year. Nawala ako sa Kanya. Nilayuan ko Siya at tinakasan. Nakakahiya kasi ung mga ginawa kong kasalanan. Pero dahil mahal Niya ko, di Niya ko tinigilan. Dinala Niya ko sa Inter-School Christian Fellowship Leadership Camp and Discipleship Camp (ISCF-LCDC).

Ginamit ni Lord itong LCDC pra magkita kami ulit; para manumbalik ako sa Kanya. Na-remind ako kung gaano ako kamahal ng Dios. Na-remind ako na namatay si Jesus para sa 'kin.

Dahil nga napakaraming kasalanan na ang nagawa ko, akala ko wala na kong karapatang lumapit kay Jesus. Pero hindi. Nung lumapit ako sa Kanya, naramdaman ko yung pangangailangan ko sa Kanya. There was something missing in my life and I found it in Christ. Pinatawad Niya ko sa mga kasalanan ko; yung mga masasakit na ginawa ko sa pamilya, at sa mga kaibigan ko. I used to be self-centered, proud and unforgiving. But God forgave me for all of those.

Nagbalik si Jesus bilang Panginoon ng buhay ko. I used to make myself the lord of my life. But God renewed my life. He purified me again. He took away the guilt I was feeling inside. He made me see that I love my family, that I have to forgive them for the bad things I have experienced from them. He made me realize tha when we are with Him, we can do even the most impossible things. Binago Niya ko. Ang dating Erin ay patay na. God restored my broken life.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY.

"Ang akin buhay ay binago Niya,

Magmula ng ako'y magpasya

Sa aking puso'y pabalik Siya

Anong himala, ako'y nag-iba

Kasalanan ko ay pinatawad

Ginawang anak Niya

Sa langit pupunta

O kay buti ng Dios at ako'y binago Niya.."