maybe you can't understand what i am saying, but that's fine. some may know what i am talking about, and to those of you who can, keep quiet (if you want to talk about it, talk about it in front of me. no backstabbing). i can't move on. ok. of course i can, i'm just thinking that i can't. i was so depressed a few days back. i prayed last last night that God would take away the depression. and He did!! praise God for that. but the problem does not end there. i am still struggling to get over this. i keep on thinking about what will happen in the future and when my dream (yes, my dream or should i say nightmare) appears in my mind, i want to do something real bad.
i don't want to be a plastic "friend". i want to forget this. i want to be free from this. i am afraid that i might sin again. i don't want to feel this bondage of my yesterday anymore. God knows what i am feeling. so He did something to help me. last may 9, i was having my quiet time. i was supposed to read 2 Peter 3:3-15, but instead, i read 1 John 3:3-15. and some of the verses i read struck me.
"Everyone who has this hope in him purifies himself, just as he is pure. No one who lives in him keeps on sinning..."
- 1 John3:3, 6
wow. that was accidental and yet God used it to make me realize that when i told Him that i want to be pure again, i am pure again. i don't have to worry anymore because He has already freed me from the bondage of my past sins. i just have to remember this truth all the time so i won't feel bad anymore. God really comforts us even in our daily struggles in life. i know i will still struggle with this. but i know that when i say, "Lord, help" He'll be there. =D
"Born for freedom,
for Your light has set me free..."
- from the song YOUR LOVE,
LCDC2k7's theme song
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